My state of mind in the time of Trump

By Mary Carouba

I don’t want to see Trump on television and feel embarrassed for my country.

I don’t want to bitterly resent those who support this administration and look at them as uncaring, selfish and ignorant.

I don’t want to sign another petition or make another sign. I don’t want to rail against the dark forces of greed and unfettered power.

I want to stop feeling afraid for refugees, immigrants, animals, Jews, Muslims, African Americans, the environment and LGBT individuals.

I want to love all others and remember again that we’re all brothers and sisters under the skin.

God, I want to stop feeling so incredibly pissed off!

I want to stop feeling exhausted and I want this feeling of deep responsibility, this sense that I MUST do something, to leave me.

I want all this, but more than anything, I want to rest and restore myself, meditate and pray deeply, take a deep breath, and prepare to fight again.

Pacing myself has never been one of my strengths, but I’m going to master it for this fight; the stakes are too high.